Smell of Jasmine fills the air. The warmth of the sun on my skin. The light breeze whispering promises of things to come. If happiness was a person it would be me in this very moment.
I am sitting in a Sardinian resort that is quietly preparing for what is to be a busy summer. Waiters tentatively servicing the few guests that have arrived for some quiet time before the arrival of the masses. Surrounded by mountains, facing the sea the resort feels like an island in it self. And in some ways I guess it is. A place to sit back, relax and let go of the outside world.
I have just left my job in London and travelled to Sardinia to explore the possibility of teaching yoga. I have no plan and in this very moment I have no idea what this summer will bring, in this moment anything can happen, in this moment I feel completely free.
Before I stared to practice yoga my life was very different. I believed myself to be happy then, I thought I had everything that I wanted but I was stuck. Stuck in habits, beliefs, doubts and insecurities. Yoga has taught me what it is to let go of all those patterns. What it is like to become my own friend and to love and embrace who I am for me, not for others.
For me there is a difference between believing that I am are free and the true feeling of being free. Belief is the state of mind, we think something to be the case, with or without there being empirical evidence to prove that something is the case. Believing is the likelihood of something being true. Truly feeling that you are free is an inner knowing, a trusting that whatever you decide to do you are guided and you are safe.
It is not easy to admit to oneself that "I am stuck" as this will imply that we are not happy, that the choices we have made are not right, that we have done wrong. Social media and culture tells us that we should be busy, we should plan, create and achieve. If we don't do this we are doing something wrong. We compare ourselves to what we see others do and we create an image of others based upon the few things that they allow us to see in their social media feeds. We let others see the parts of our lives that we are happy with, that excites us and we don't often communicate or post things that would indicate that we are bored, sad or unhappy.
It doesn't have to be this way. Being stuck might simply mean that we are not using our full potential, that we are looking in the wrong direction. Wherever we are in our lives is exactly where we need to be but it also means that we have a choice in what we do next. To stop, look around and change direction. This is what my yoga practice has given me....a choice. The choice to play safe or to jump into the unknown trusting that I will be safe.
Love yourself enough to give yourself a choice.